Color Change and BB Cream

It seems that I am obliged to change. Why? The world wants me to change. Seems as though it is unavoidable. I can simply hope that someday I will be able to relax and allow my individuality to surface without any apologizes.

Back to Dark… Aside from the gloom, I dyed my hair! About a month ago my hair color was changed to its natural color. The color is a dark brown. I have received mixed reviews on the color. My parents hate it, saying that it is too dark for my skin tone. Others love it saying that it suites me. My opinion? The color shocked me at first, but after a time I began to adore it.

Memorial Day Weekend… With any luck a vacation will be in my near future. Antoinette and I had intended to go to the beach for Memorial Day weekend. We also invited Également, her brother, and her friend to go with us. However, unless a miracle happens I will not be able to join them (Funds are running low as of late). Therefore, I shall bid them farewell and wish them an incredible weekend (And yet I cross my fingers hopeful for a miracle).

“You Complete Me”… Antoinette recently posted a shout out to me stating, “You Complete Me”. Allow me to tell the story behind this phrase. Several months ago I told Antoinette, “I like that you are my friend; because when I become silent in conversations with others you speak up”. Her response was, “So what you’re saying is I complete you”. Immediately I made a noise of disgust stating, “Way to go, Antoinette, you just ruined the moment”. This resulted in her laughing heartedly.

BB Cream… A few weeks ago I purchased Innisfree Trouble Care BB Cream. The product arrived last Thursday. Before purchasing this product I researched it thoroughly. Based on my skin type, I decided to purchase it (I have acne scars and acne-prone skin). I have only used the product a few times. Although when I use the product it cuts the amount of time I spend on make up in half. The coverage is a medium; providing a natural dewy look. I have not noticed any changes to my skin yet. Though I intend to continue using the product with high hopes. Thus far I have only one dislike. The oil control could be better.

The Beach, Writing, and Tea

Well this past week was very busy…

The Beach… This past weekend Antoinette and I went to the beach with Également, her brother, and her friend. Actually we only spent time with them on Saturday. It was an incredible day. The scenery itself was gorgeous. Preparing for this day Antoinette and I had no intention of actually swimming. We planned on seeing a movie and shopping. However, as the day progressed we decided to swim and bought swimsuits. The entire process of finding a swimsuit that fit and was on sale was difficult. (Especially finding one that was on sale for a reasonable price) The key issue was we could not (for a long period of time) find swimsuits in our sizes that were conservative. Needless to say by the end of the shopping experience our self-esteem had dropped significantly.
The Ocean…After we bought swimsuits we actually had a fantastic time. Once I was in the water I felt completely at ease. All of my doubts; all of my concerns seemed to melt away as I let the waves cascade over me. At one moment I remember sighing and saying, “I would love to stay here forever”. The sun was setting at the time casting a golden reflection onto the sea. It was quite beautiful.
Someone Likes Me… Throughout this day I noticed that someone had developed a small crush on me, Également’s brother. He had heard of me, and I had heard of him. Before this day we had never met. Since he has known me and even before, he had referred to me as his “Latino Lover”. Why? I asked the same question. It is because of my name (My real name). He said it sounds like a Latino name. Throughout the day he mostly announced his situation with other girls. Then splashed me numerous times while we were in the ocean. In addition he made compliments on my appearance, and specifically asked to ride in my car upon outings. The only idea I had that he liked me was Également. She would tell me he had said something about me. Or he had told her something to tell me. She would typically tell me these things in front of him. He would either agree or say nothing. Based on what she would mostly tell me that he said. I think he liked me, but really only wanted to get “laid”. I think this because he seemed to be upset about another girl. Maybe he wanted me to be his rebound girl. I thought that he was a nice guy, but he showed little interest in me. If I had known him over a longer period of time I might have had a date with him. However, I am sorry, but I am not a “Booty Call”. Although I still think that I could be his friend.
I have no hard feelings in any way about any of the events that took today. If it sounds as though I am angry; I am not. I am only speaking “Matter of Factly”. (BTW Factly is not an actual word, but I could not think of better phrase) I had a fantastic time, thus the reason why we went back to the beach the next day. Besides I cannot wait to spend Memorial Day weekend with them!

More Beach…On the next day Antoinette and I returned to the beach. I am not quite sure what happened, but somehow Également, her brother, and her friend lost communication with us. They were going to meet us at the park and I suppose something happened. Antoinette and I still went to the ocean and then shopped. We wore our swimsuits and I had brought a change of clothes. Antoinette did not. She did; however, wear a poncho over her swimsuit. This poncho can also be worn as a dress. As a result, when we changed she wore the dress. Later at a gas station we stopped to buy lottery tickets. (FYI she tied the straps around her back thus causing the dress to be strapless) She was standing outside the car and leaned down to grab her ID. The moment she did so her dress rolled down to her high waist, a “Girls Gone Wild” moment. I could not help laughing as I turned away. As she tried to compose herself once again she said to her breasts, “No boobies we don’t roll like that”. Thus causing me to laugh hysterically as I lowered my forehead to the steering wheel to hide my reddened face. Fortunately for her there was no one else around (except for the cashier inside the gas station). It was another fun day.

Previous Post… I forgot to mention in my previous post that I do not care for the movie Rent. Antoinette loves it, but I view the movie as some form of punishment. I consistently sigh and roll my eyes throughout the movie. It may be a good movie to some, but I typically am not fond of musicals. Consequently, I only find it frustrating and irritating. Nonetheless this is just my opinion.

My writing… I have been working on numerous novels for a long period of four years (The time span since I completed my last novel). I know I only have myself to blame for only one finished novel. Even my dentist scrutinized me for not being published yet. There is a short story contest coming up in July that I intend to enter. Hopefully I can get it together long enough to complete and perfect one of my half written short stories.

Allegria Jasmine Burst Tea… Recently I tried Allegria Jasmine Burst Tea. This tea has each pod open to reveal a fresh Jasmine blossom. The scent was so intoxicating I could not tear myself away. The beauty of flower made me hesitate to taste the tea. The taste itself was average. Everything else… only one word could Suffice: Lovely.

Over a Month's time...

My sincere apologizes for not writing in such a long time. The only excuse I can provide is that I had been tired and busy with work (and maybe a couple of other things).

Lets begin…
Chocolate Meltdown…I was doing pretty well for a time about not eating many sweets including my greatest downfall, chocolate. Then about three or four weeks ago catastrophe struck. Antoinette bought brownie mix and made brownies. (Sorry I forgot to mention that we typically do not keep sweets in the house.) I thought that maybe my will power would be strong and I would be able to resist the temptation of chocolate. Sadly that was not the case. While they were baking the scent of perfection was leaked into the air. I immediately wanted a piece. I began rationalizing to myself that I could have one, Only One, and then my desire to taste a brownie would be quenched. I convinced myself that I would not desire another. I was wrong, very wrong. I cut a deal with Antoinette (I asked her to help me lose weight. Therefore she helps me cut back on the amount of calories I consume in a day). The deal: In exchange for four brownies I would watch the movie Rent. (FYI I typically am not fond of musicals.) Upon tasting the first brownie I became addicted. I inhaled the other three. Thus leading to Antoinette swiftly grabbing the remainder of the brownies and hiding them. It was a sad, sad day for me.

This leads to a similar topic. Since my last post I would say that I have lost about 10 to fifteen pounds! The reason I say, “about 10 to 15” is because I cannot remember what my weight was. I have an estimate but I cannot recall what it was precisely. I have made a deal with Antoinette. The deal: If she can help me slim down to my ideal weight; I will go out into public without wearing any make up. She agreed immediately. I am very self-conscious about my face, especially without make up.

A few weeks ago I noticed that I had started complaining frequently. In addition, I began to notice that others were becoming impatient with my constant complaining. Therefore, I decided that I could only complain for 10 minutes a day. In addition, when I complained it had to be to only one person. So far I think it is working brilliantly. Optimism seems to be my point of view lately. Therefore I think that not dragging out every little thing that annoys me throughout the day helps. Finding that when I summarize the problem it does not seem as meaningful. Allowing me to forget the issue and move on.