The Beach, Writing, and Tea

Well this past week was very busy…

The Beach… This past weekend Antoinette and I went to the beach with Également, her brother, and her friend. Actually we only spent time with them on Saturday. It was an incredible day. The scenery itself was gorgeous. Preparing for this day Antoinette and I had no intention of actually swimming. We planned on seeing a movie and shopping. However, as the day progressed we decided to swim and bought swimsuits. The entire process of finding a swimsuit that fit and was on sale was difficult. (Especially finding one that was on sale for a reasonable price) The key issue was we could not (for a long period of time) find swimsuits in our sizes that were conservative. Needless to say by the end of the shopping experience our self-esteem had dropped significantly.
The Ocean…After we bought swimsuits we actually had a fantastic time. Once I was in the water I felt completely at ease. All of my doubts; all of my concerns seemed to melt away as I let the waves cascade over me. At one moment I remember sighing and saying, “I would love to stay here forever”. The sun was setting at the time casting a golden reflection onto the sea. It was quite beautiful.
Someone Likes Me… Throughout this day I noticed that someone had developed a small crush on me, Également’s brother. He had heard of me, and I had heard of him. Before this day we had never met. Since he has known me and even before, he had referred to me as his “Latino Lover”. Why? I asked the same question. It is because of my name (My real name). He said it sounds like a Latino name. Throughout the day he mostly announced his situation with other girls. Then splashed me numerous times while we were in the ocean. In addition he made compliments on my appearance, and specifically asked to ride in my car upon outings. The only idea I had that he liked me was Également. She would tell me he had said something about me. Or he had told her something to tell me. She would typically tell me these things in front of him. He would either agree or say nothing. Based on what she would mostly tell me that he said. I think he liked me, but really only wanted to get “laid”. I think this because he seemed to be upset about another girl. Maybe he wanted me to be his rebound girl. I thought that he was a nice guy, but he showed little interest in me. If I had known him over a longer period of time I might have had a date with him. However, I am sorry, but I am not a “Booty Call”. Although I still think that I could be his friend.
I have no hard feelings in any way about any of the events that took today. If it sounds as though I am angry; I am not. I am only speaking “Matter of Factly”. (BTW Factly is not an actual word, but I could not think of better phrase) I had a fantastic time, thus the reason why we went back to the beach the next day. Besides I cannot wait to spend Memorial Day weekend with them!

More Beach…On the next day Antoinette and I returned to the beach. I am not quite sure what happened, but somehow Également, her brother, and her friend lost communication with us. They were going to meet us at the park and I suppose something happened. Antoinette and I still went to the ocean and then shopped. We wore our swimsuits and I had brought a change of clothes. Antoinette did not. She did; however, wear a poncho over her swimsuit. This poncho can also be worn as a dress. As a result, when we changed she wore the dress. Later at a gas station we stopped to buy lottery tickets. (FYI she tied the straps around her back thus causing the dress to be strapless) She was standing outside the car and leaned down to grab her ID. The moment she did so her dress rolled down to her high waist, a “Girls Gone Wild” moment. I could not help laughing as I turned away. As she tried to compose herself once again she said to her breasts, “No boobies we don’t roll like that”. Thus causing me to laugh hysterically as I lowered my forehead to the steering wheel to hide my reddened face. Fortunately for her there was no one else around (except for the cashier inside the gas station). It was another fun day.

Previous Post… I forgot to mention in my previous post that I do not care for the movie Rent. Antoinette loves it, but I view the movie as some form of punishment. I consistently sigh and roll my eyes throughout the movie. It may be a good movie to some, but I typically am not fond of musicals. Consequently, I only find it frustrating and irritating. Nonetheless this is just my opinion.

My writing… I have been working on numerous novels for a long period of four years (The time span since I completed my last novel). I know I only have myself to blame for only one finished novel. Even my dentist scrutinized me for not being published yet. There is a short story contest coming up in July that I intend to enter. Hopefully I can get it together long enough to complete and perfect one of my half written short stories.

Allegria Jasmine Burst Tea… Recently I tried Allegria Jasmine Burst Tea. This tea has each pod open to reveal a fresh Jasmine blossom. The scent was so intoxicating I could not tear myself away. The beauty of flower made me hesitate to taste the tea. The taste itself was average. Everything else… only one word could Suffice: Lovely.

Over a Month's time...

My sincere apologizes for not writing in such a long time. The only excuse I can provide is that I had been tired and busy with work (and maybe a couple of other things).

Lets begin…
Chocolate Meltdown…I was doing pretty well for a time about not eating many sweets including my greatest downfall, chocolate. Then about three or four weeks ago catastrophe struck. Antoinette bought brownie mix and made brownies. (Sorry I forgot to mention that we typically do not keep sweets in the house.) I thought that maybe my will power would be strong and I would be able to resist the temptation of chocolate. Sadly that was not the case. While they were baking the scent of perfection was leaked into the air. I immediately wanted a piece. I began rationalizing to myself that I could have one, Only One, and then my desire to taste a brownie would be quenched. I convinced myself that I would not desire another. I was wrong, very wrong. I cut a deal with Antoinette (I asked her to help me lose weight. Therefore she helps me cut back on the amount of calories I consume in a day). The deal: In exchange for four brownies I would watch the movie Rent. (FYI I typically am not fond of musicals.) Upon tasting the first brownie I became addicted. I inhaled the other three. Thus leading to Antoinette swiftly grabbing the remainder of the brownies and hiding them. It was a sad, sad day for me.

This leads to a similar topic. Since my last post I would say that I have lost about 10 to fifteen pounds! The reason I say, “about 10 to 15” is because I cannot remember what my weight was. I have an estimate but I cannot recall what it was precisely. I have made a deal with Antoinette. The deal: If she can help me slim down to my ideal weight; I will go out into public without wearing any make up. She agreed immediately. I am very self-conscious about my face, especially without make up.

A few weeks ago I noticed that I had started complaining frequently. In addition, I began to notice that others were becoming impatient with my constant complaining. Therefore, I decided that I could only complain for 10 minutes a day. In addition, when I complained it had to be to only one person. So far I think it is working brilliantly. Optimism seems to be my point of view lately. Therefore I think that not dragging out every little thing that annoys me throughout the day helps. Finding that when I summarize the problem it does not seem as meaningful. Allowing me to forget the issue and move on.

Antoinette Weekend

This past weekend was Antoinette weekend; which means doing everything Antoinette would like to do. We had two days of the “I will wear this If you wear that” game. This she found very entertaining. I wore several dresses that my grandmother would wear. All of the dresses had ruffles, floral patterns, and shoulder pads. Imagine that type of dress. She also picked out an outfit that had ruffles similar to Little Bo Peep’s undergarments. The top had a blue tie-dye look paired with a light pink skirt. Both the top and the skirt had the Little Bo Peep theme. To bring this look together it was paired with black leggings. These were not just any leggings they were faux black leather leggings that reached my angles. To describe this outfit as horrendous would be a great understatement. I did have her try on a few disastrous outfits as well. It was worth it.

I had my body measured this week and discovered that I lost 1.5 pounds. This amazed me given that I had not worked out since I was sick. I thought that I had gained all of the weight I had lost back. Yes I was very stunned that I had lost a pound.

Work has not been the most fun as of late. Though there is the exception of one of my coworkers. This week for dinner Antoinette made many dishes that involved rice. (I love rice! Particularly white rice I love the most!) My favorite dish was this vegetables and rice combination. The vegetables were cooked in the rice with seasoning. I loved it so much that I had to save the leftovers and eat it the next night.

The weekend of March 19 thru March 21 was Layla weekend. I did not take full advantage of my weekend like Antoinette did. (Though I will do so next time it is Layla weekend.) On my weekend we watched The Ramen Girl. I found the movie interesting (probably because it was set in Tokyo, Japan). I tried to find more movies like this with not any success. Most of the suggestions were cooking movies; which I can understand. Since The Ramen Girl is based mostly upon Brittany Murphy learning how to excel at cooking ramen. Though the similar qualities I was looking for was comedic cooking movies that took place in Japan. As I stated earlier I have not had much luck.

In addition this weekend Antoinette and I had a pedicure. Particularly I do not like others to touch my feet. To have a pedicure seemed repulsive to me, but to be honest it was not that bad. Plus the woman who gave me the pedicure wore gloves; which made the entire process more bearable. We also had a fill in. Two weeks ago when I had a full set, they were painted hot pink. (A pink that Antoinette called Barbie Pink) This week they were painted Lime Green.

Bitchfest

Warning: The following post contains strong language.

Let me begin by saying I apologize sincerely for the language that is in this post. I tried to avoid it, but found that I could not. Last weekend I moved into my new place with Antoinette as my roommate! I really am fond of living here. Freedom!!! This being reason I did not have a post last week. I was very busy with packing, moving, and followed by unpacking (correction: Still unpacking). The only process I was not fond of was packing and unpacking. It seems to be a pointless action.

The language… I find that I am easily annoyed with people (especially customers). Customer service is a large portion of my job. It has been for five years. Since I have been working in this field for so long I try to be exceptionally nice to everyone. Moreover I feel that if I cannot help you I should to find someone who can. What do I receive in return? Lies topped with attitude sprinkled with. sarcasm and a large side of being an ass. What angers me most is that I try a great deal to help. In return I receive attitudes from sullen spoiled brats. However, some customers are an absolute delight to see. Yet I feel as though the brats overpower the delights. I am still trying to help everyone, but I feel that I am becoming a little bitter.

“If you want something done right… do it yourself” I normally do not agree with this quote. Why? Because I feel that if you are patient you can teach someone to accomplish anything. Or that is what I thought. This is not always accurate. I have been attempting to teach someone how to accomplish the most simple of tasks. I have explained one particular task so thoroughly that I am tired of hearing myself explain it. I deduce the key reason I am tired of explaining it is because every time I receive attitude. I hate hearing deep sighs. I hate hearing them especially when I am trying to explain something to you that is helpful. When you do this it makes me want to slap you! Either figure it out yourself or stop acting like a spoiled bitch!

The color of my hair is platinum blonde with a dark brown shade underneath. As you might have assumed the natural color of my hair is not blonde. The dark brown shade is in fact my natural color. Since I have been dying my hair blonde for seven years I have decided to have a change. The next time I visit my hairstylist I will tell her to dye it my natural color. Very drastic, yes, this decision has me a little nervous. It Lead me to compose a pros and cons list, pros won. The key reason being it saves money. The nervous feeling is mainly because my skin is fair, one shade darker than that of a porcelain doll. I feel that the color might wash me out.

Why do irresponsible people have children? If you cannot control the issues in your life before children; how is it an intelligent decision to have children? Who have their own issues! Today I was watching how most parents interacted with their children. They tend to ignore them almost completely, and allow them touch everything. This is convenient for me because it leads to computers crashing. Why? Because the computer monitors are nailed to the wall at a toddler’s height. In addition, it is even more unfortunate to have the computer monitors as touch screens. Therefore, it is a picnic for me every day to fix them numerous times throughout the day.

200 Pounds Beauty and Sophie's Revenge

I apologize for not posting a blog last week. I was very tired on Sunday. Monday I was sick; which became worse throughout the week. To be honest I am still sick as I write this blog. However, I feel much better today than the other days. I went to the doctor yesterday and he told me that I have a severe sinus infection. He told me that since I thought it was a cold and was treating it as such was the reason it was so severe. He also told me that I needed antibiotics or it would only become worse. Therefore I decided to have a shot and take the antibiotics.

A couple of weeks ago I watched this anime series entitled “Honey and Clover.” I found it very amusing and entertaining. There were many scenes where I found myself laughing hysterically. However, I was disappointed that only two seasons were made. Though I did find a movie that was adapted from the series; it was okay.

Recently Antoinette and I watched 200 Pounds Beauty and Sophie’s Revenge. 200 Pounds Beauty is a Korean Romantic Comedy and is utterly hilarious! Antoinette even told me that the main actor in 200 Pounds Beauty would get one baby from her. (It is an inside joke between us. Both of us would never have children, and by saying how many babies a guy would get out of her. Is stating how attractive she finds that guy). This made me positively giddy! I give the movie five stars! Sophie’s Revenge is a Chinese Romantic Comedy. It was also very entertaining and very enthusiastic! I give it also five stars! I wish I could find movies similar to these two movies!

My song writing has currently been placed on hold. This fact I very much dislike. My brain is currently on repeat stating “I need to stop wasting time and do something productive!” I have this thought every day all day. Yes I think that I am my own worst enemy. Although I suppose it is a good thing because it paranoids me until I start doing something productive. Nevertheless, I did finish a rough draft for a song, but it still needs a great deal of modifications. I guess it is some progress.

Great News… I think within the next two weeks I will be living in my new place! Yes I know it is very exciting! I will be moving to a town I have never lived in before! Moreover I will be moving in with a close friend of mine! Yes I am very excited! In addition I have a red bedroom! Looovvveee it!

I am very disappointed in myself. Why? Well I have tried to work out numerous times while I have been sick. Unfortunately, it always ends the same it only last for about five to ten minutes. Every time I experience headaches followed by nausea; which has me stopping the work out every time. Therefore I think I have gained some weight this past week. I am not sure because I have been too afraid to find out. Ignorance is bliss… sometimes.

National Chocolate Day and Snow!

Yesterday was an interesting day. It snowed all day for the first time. It was not a small amount either. There was such a vast amount that everything had a layer of snow that coated it. It was stunning. I have only seen snow twice. Once when I was seven and my family was vacationing in the mountains. However at the time I was not allowed to go outside and touch it. Then again a couple of years it had snowed at 5:00am and melted by 7:00am. This snow day was indeed constant.

Let me say that I in general act as though I am at the age of thirty-five. Yet when I saw the vast amount of snow yesterday I felt like a child. I had a snow ball fight, wrote my name, and kicked through it with each step. I began sliding in the snow as well. It looked quite similar to Tom Cruise in risky business; Except for the fact that I was buddle up, wearing pants, and wearing my black boots. I was sliding so much that my feet finally slid a little too much causing me to fall down. Yes it hurt but it was hilarious I turned over and laughed up to my brother. At first his expression seemed to be one of shock then his expression softened as he began to laugh with me. I turned over again and figured since I was lying on the ground I might as well make a snow angel. It was truly a great day.

I found a new program to assist me with the song I am creating. I have not actually tried it yet, but I have read excellent reviews. In addition I read plenty of information about it and sound as though it might be helpful. However I could always be wrong. I hope that it will be helpful though.

The past couple of years I was beginning to think the rebellious streak in me had died. However, I found that not to be accurate. If I knew that my employers would not mind it. I would dye the shade (it is underneath the top layer of my hair) in my hair. I would not dye it just any color it would be Fifth Element red! (Yes I am very fond of the color red!) I think that one day I WILL dye it that color! It is simply a matter of time. Moreover I realized I am not a fan of authority. For some reason when I am being ordered around I am not fond of it. In addition I hate being asked questions that have already presented itself an answer. For example having your boss ask you what each shelf in your office contains when each shelf is LABLED! IRRITATING! You have eyes! Look and you will find the answer to your ridiculous question!

Aside from that… I intensified my workouts this week. Why? Well I found myself wanting to eat more. I would not want to eat just anything; it was sweets I was craving. The number one engulfing treat was CHOCOLATE! I found myself craving it uncontrollably. For breakfast I have been eating chocolate muffins and chocolate pop-tarts. That is normally my fix for the day. Though I cannot help but to constantly want it throughout the day. I try to ignore the cravings. Not much success so far; hence I have been intensifying my workout. Also today is Valentine’s Day. For me it is National Chocolate Day, everyone I know always gives me chocolate. Which I think is absolutely fantastic! Someone has already given me an entire box of my favorite chocolates! My… my… do I love National Chocolate Day! Though there is one issue that is coming between my usual celebration and me, it’s my diet!

Moreover on the subject of Valentine’s Day… My family members, coworkers, and acquaintances forever seem to ask me around this time of year if I have a boyfriend to spend Valentine’s Day with. I know none of those people will read this, but still I would like to say it. The answer is NO! It has been that answer for the past few years! It will be that answer for the next several years! Therefore STOP ASKING! Why is it my sole purpose in life to find a mate? I have thoughts, ideas, creativity, goals, and dreams! I have no time to spend on silly boys! Who will become my personal 24-hour critic! Let me say this: NO, NOPE, NAY, NEIN!

Do Not Touch!

Finally I have a medley for my song. It has a slow tempo and is quite good. In addition I have the lyrics written and they too are good. However I cannot fathom how to sing the lyrics with the medley. I have listened to many songs with a slow tempo. Most singers do not sing with the medley rather they sing quite differently. Yet it works well as an overall song. I wish there was a class I could take or a book I could read that unlocks some secret to how sing your own song.

Moving on… I would like one day to be fluent in seven different languages: French, Spanish, German, Korean, Greek, Japanese, and Latin. Technically if I knew all those languages I would actually know eight languages fluently. Hence English is my first language. I know most of you are wondering why I would want to learn these languages. One day I would like to travel to many different countries. Knowing these languages would make my visits to these countries easier. I want to learn Latin so that Antoinette and I could speak in Latin frequently. We can speak in Latin especially when we do not want others to know what we are talking about.

Onto another subject I had my body measured again this week. I held my breath the entire time. I had not been that committed to working out this past week. I was certain that I had gained weight. Fortunately I lost another 3 pounds! I was so excited that I hugged Antoinette!

That leads to another subject… I am very uncomfortable with touch. For instance I have known Antoinette for about 2 or 3 years now. I think it was only a couple months ago I hugged her for the first time. Why? Well I have forever been this way. It feels odd every time I express myself through touch. However once I have been friends with someone for an extensive time I will be more comfortable with it. However I only express emotions through touch sparingly even when I am comfortable. I know what most of you are thinking. How well did this go over with boyfriends? Every time they would try to hold my hand or hug me I would shy away. Yes they have all been persistent; which is normally the cue for me to end the relationship. Recently a coworker of mine asked me to sit in her lap. The word NO screamed in my subconscious. I knew at that moment my coworker had known what I was thinking. I did try to hide the answer from showing on my face. However I tried to hide it after it had briefly showed itself. I knew my face had shown the horrified expression when her smile faded. Seeing this made me feel a twinge of guilt. I told her “Umm… okay”. I did so for a brief second but I felt dreadfully awkward. I am very delighted she has not asked me to since. I do notice that she is encouraging me to be more susceptible to touch.

Aside from that…I will be moving soon. I am very Ecstatic about it. We just recently finished painting my bedroom (there are touch ups that are still needed, but mostly it is done).We painted it red. Apparently to paint your bedroom red is a huge No-No. Upon telling my mother about it she immediately made a disgusting face and replied, “RED for a bedroom?” I replied, “RED!” What is the issue? I for one like the color red. It is my second favorite color. Whenever I wear the color I feel bright, energetic, bold, and confident. My mother says the color will make me depressed. I highly doubt it. I think the color will make me feel fiery, determined, and ready to take on the world. This will make it an excellent color to wake up to every morning. Yet again, I ask what is terribly wrong with painting your bedroom red?